We have a winner! Monday, Feb 1 2010

Ok.  Here is the schedule:

Saturday, February 6th: Birthday Party

Sunday, February 7th: Bowel Cleanse (Oddly appropriate after what I hope is, a night of debauchery)

Monday, February 8th: Surgery (Come visit me!  Should I bring the tiara and birthday sash?)

Tuesday, February 9th: Birthday @ home!

So everyone wins, right?

UPDATE

The Dr. gave me an Rx for all the drugs I’ll need.  Usual suspects, nothing shocking.  Except, for pain he prescribed Darvocet rather than Vicodin.  Normally I’d be like Whatevs.  He asked if I’d had it before I said no.  Which was a mistake, I have had it before.  A Doctor gave it to me when I had to have a D&C becuase my lining was at like 11.5 and should have been at like 4.  We thought this was what was causing the spotting, WRONG.  But anyway, the Darvocet did almost nothing for me, and that was just some poking around and scraping, nothing as invasive as surgery.  So, I don’t want to call Dr. N’s office and be all whiny bitch but, I also don’t want to get home, take the meds and have no relief.  What do I do?  Just call and say, sorry I mad a mistake, I have had it before and it didn’t work?  I have to say, after all the poking, prodding, scraping and cutting I’ve been through, I don’t have the pain tolerance I once did.  ~sigh~  Suggestions???

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Day-o, Da-a-ay-o Saturday, Jan 30 2010

Had a lovely visit with Dr. N today.  His staff is WONDERFUL.  He is WONDERFUL.  I can’t say enough nice things about them.

So what day-o is the surgery on?  Dunno.  Could be the 3rd, yep as in Wednesday.  Could be the 10th.  Could be any date in between.  I’ll know more on Monday when I go for pre-op.

They are all for not having me have surgery on my birthday.  I said I was OK with it.  I’d come with tiaras, noise makers and sashes.  (The nurses loved this idea.  I like it my own self.) Thing is, if they do it on the 10th I get to do the bowel prep (more on bowel prep) on my birthday.  Baaaybeeeeeee, lemme tell you what! I would rather have them cut. me. open. on my birfday than do a bowl prep that day!  That’s not even true.  I’d rather do ANYTHING ELSE than a bowl prep, evar!

Dr. N was like, “No, no no!  Not on your birthday!  We’ll do it the 3rd.  You should have a good birthday.”

Nurse:  Well I don’t know if that time is available I need to call.  (she leaves to call)

Me: Thanks Dr. N.  (Waits for him to walk away.   A few minutes later nurse returns)

Nurse: I can’t get a hold of them.  There are only two people there so they are really busy, but I’ll keep calling and let you know.  Come in on Monday for your pre-op.

Me:  (looking around to make sure Dr. N is gone because I don’t want to hurt his feelings) You know, my husband is planning a party for me on the 6th.  I mean I guess we can reschedule it or I can sit on the couch and play queen and have them surround me and bring me ish.

Nurse:  That’s fun!

So I leave, go to Pinkberry’s and sit in the parking lot eating my original swirly goodness with granola, mango and kiwi, thinking about my options.  I started on my way when I remembered mom-in-law and hubs are coming for the party on the 6th.  Frak!

I call the nurse back.

Me: Hai!  It’s me again.  I think the 10th would be better for me.  I just rememberd the inlaws are flying in for the par-tay.

Nurse: Oh OK.

Me:  But you know how you said he does surgeries at different facilities?  Can you check dates there, too?  Maybe we can find a better alternative.

Nurse: Yeah, sure!  I’ll take a look and get back to you.

Me: Great!  Sorry to be a troublesome patient.

Nurse: OH! You are so not!

Me:  Thank you!  Can I bring you some lemons?  I have a tree…

Anyway, so I go in Monday for the pre-op and then we’ll know what date.  I’ll wait until Monday to stop taking my meds.  I mean, when you’re allergic to cats and have 4 of them, not to mention the dust and mold allergies…You REALLY don’t want to stop taking them.

Honestly, I’m not that opposed to the surgery being on the 3rd.  Soon is good, just in case it’s not the endo that is causing the spotting to return.  We need to figure out what it is.  It shouldn’t be as extensive as it was last time to recovery should be easier.  Although, I have an apt with the fertility clinic for an exam on the 2nd @ 2:00 p.m. and I don’t know how that would work with the bowl prep.  (Did you get that? 2/2 @2? HA!) That may need to be rescheduled.

I could vacillate on the dates all night long so, I’m gonna end it here.  Any thoughts?

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Let’s play Doctor! Friday, Jan 29 2010

Phone conversation with my dr’s office:

Me: Hi.  I would like to schedule surgery with Dr. N to take a look to see if the endometriosis is back.

Nurse: OK.  Let me pull your chart.  When would you like to do it?

Me:  As soon as possible.  But preferably not on my birthday. (I joke, laughing)

Nurse:  OK.  Let’s see…oh…um.  Oh.

Me: What.

Nurse:  The earliest date we have available is February 9th.  Your birthday.

Me: (I laugh because what else can you do) Figures.

I will go in and discuss it with them on Friday…but if it does go down like that, consider yourself warned!

I WANT LOTS AND LOTS OF SYMPATHY BIRTHDAY PRESENTS!!

If I do have to do it on my birthday, I’m trying to look at the bright side of things.  So, lets play a game.  The…

Things you can do or get if you have surgery on your birthday:

1. You get morphine!

2. You get the sympathy birthday gift.

3. Party in your recovery room.

4. Wear a tiara and bring party favors.

5.  I can haz McSteamy?  Can you say sponge bath?

….Now, it’s your turn!  Whatcha got?

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Please Doctor, Sir, I’d like some more-phine Monday, Jan 25 2010

I was watching an episode of Grey’s Anatomy.  It’s the one where Meredith has appendicitis.  She is high as a freaking kite on morphine, headed into surgery where they were gonna cut her open and remove a piece of her insides.  I mean think about it, really, take a moment.  Remove. Body. Parts.  It’s serious business, the risk for infection, something going wrong, bad surgeons, reaction to drugs.  Surgery is no joke.

And all I could thing was, “Man!  She is soooooooo lucky!  She’s on morphine and feels NOTHING!  Surgery is so worth it.  I wish I were her.”

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Oh Happy Day! Sunday, Jan 24 2010

They just opened my favorite treat near Dr. N’s office!!!

Yay me!!

\o/

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All’s Well That Begins Well Saturday, Jan 23 2010

The consult appointment went well.  We went over all the usual stuff, questions, concerns, paths etc.  My doctor, we’ll call him Dr. K, was on board with me going to my endomitriosis doctor, hereafter dubbed, Dr. N, for a look-see.  I mean if it’s all happy in there, then bully for me.  If not, then he can do his magic and fix it.  I’ll be down for about six weeks and we can get going on the transfer.  When we get closer to those proceedings, I’ll give a more detailed explanations.  I will tell you this though, it looks like if we do a controlled cycle (with medications) rather than a natural one (with out meds) I’ll have to go back on the bitch juice.  Woot!  Look out world!! Haahahahahahahahaha!

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Here we go again… Wednesday, Jan 20 2010

So after a line up of surgeries and recovery not to mention all the other stuff going on in our lives, we have decided to go ahead with the FET (Frozen Embryo Transfer).  Yep.  We’re gonna thaw out those pops, (hopefully they will survive the thaw) drop them off and hopefully they will stick around.  I guess I can’t really blame the others for not hanging out, it must have been uncomfortable with all that endo taking up space.  We only have two embryos and honestly, they wern’t that high a grade, so I’m very worried about their surviving the thaw.

The initial consultation is tomorrow.  I worked on getting all my medical records sent over there before the consult so he has the information.  Since it’s been a year since the last endo surgery, I’m thinking they are gonna need to take a look-see inside to see if the endo is back.  I’m hoping no, but I’m not sure and at this point I am not willing to make coin toss guess.  I think it is, but what do I know…

Then I guess we decide if it’s gonna be a “natural” cycle or a drugged one.  We’ll see I guess.

So, my fear and freak out level is pretty high.  Paranoid.  Cautious.  All those things are playing up.  Anxious is another good one.  I find myself tapping my fingers or foot a lot.  I haven’t woken up gripping my blankets  like was was before, but I have notice some fist clenching during TV consumption.

To combat some of this I think I’ve started walking again, trying to work off some of this excess spaziness.  I downloaded a bunch of audio books so that will be nice.

Hopefully my issues with CIGNA won’t get in my way of this round, but I guess we’ll see.  Washington should invite a bunch of fertility challenged people up to speak about health care and insurance companies.  I’m sure we’d have a lot to say!

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Surgery Part Deux Saturday, Jan 17 2009

So, time for the second round of surgeries.  I was just reading over previous posts and glad to see, I am consistent in my fear.  Good Lord.  Yeah I went through the SAME. EXACT. EMOTIONS.  last week.  I forgot I felt this way last time.  Memory is a funny thing.

So, they are gonna remove the other tube, cysts, appendix, the endo and maybe do a bowel resection.  They won’t know until they dig in.  I’ll probably be in for 2 nights.  I only stayed one night last time and in retrospect should have stayed an additional night.  I’m not a good invalid at home.  I can’t sit still.  It’s also why I can’t do my own nails.  Can’t sit still.  I also can’t have on nail polish for the surgery.  Bummer, dude.  But I digress…

If the do the resection, that will probably keep me in for another couple days.  I have a list of stuff I’m bringing with me, since I know I will be staying this time.  Last time my hospital roommate took up for me and got me stuff like a tooth brush and stuff.  I hope I’m that lucky again she is an amazing woman.  Anywho…I was wondering if there was internet connection, so I go searching the website to find this…

“What to Leave at Home

Please leave at home your valuables such as jewelry, large sums of cash, cell phones, laptop computers, pagers or video equipment. Electronic appliances (excepting shavers and hair dryers) are not permitted in patient rooms for safety reasons.”

*Blink. Blink. Blink.*

YOU. MUST. BE. SHITTING. ME.  The HELL I’m not bringing my laptop and cell phone!!!  I have movies all picked out to watch!! Humph!  We’ll just see about THAT!!  Have I mentioned I’m not a good invalid?  I don’t sit around well.  *sigh*

Anyway, so I have to do the “Cleanse” again… *shudder*  I’m gonna stay home this time.  Even though my check in time is 5 freaking 30 in the morning.  Surgery at 7:30 which means while Obama is swearing in, I’ll be out.  Super bummer.  I’m Tivoing it, but still, it’s not the same.

So, if y’all are so inclined, holla at a sista.  You can reach me HOPEFULLY on my cell or try The Man’s.  He’ll be with me mostly or tell you my room number or whatever.  Don’t worry, if I don’t feel like talking, I won’t answer the phone so, don’t think you’re disturbing me!  LOL.  Or better yet!! Come by and bring REAL broth!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

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When it’s over… Wednesday, Nov 19 2008

Update:

Sorry for the confusion.  We may try more IVF in the future, it’s just with losing the insurance it will be a lot tougher.  I wrote the other post just after finding out the news we lost the insurance so I was not very clear.  I apologize for the misinformation.  With the insurance we had unlimited tries, now there is very much a limit and I am very much aware of it.  My heart is broken over it.  So, when we decide to try again (after someone sends me the winning lotto numbers ) we’ll let you know.

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No Cal-Cobra for me which means no more IVF.

I’ll mourn my loss and move on.  Thanks for reading and commenting, it meant a lot.  I’ll be making the blog private so if I have news and post, I’ll send out an email.  If you can get in, email me and I’ll include you.

Again, thanks for everything.

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And the verdict? Saturday, Oct 25 2008

ENDOMETRIOSIS.

No, I take that back.  SEVERE ENDOMETRIOSIS.

The Cliff’s Notes version is, the doctor got in there and it was like an endometriosis bomb went off.  They were all very surprised.  It’s bad when your dr is surprised.  So one of my tubes he couldn’t work on, he took the other one out.  My bowels were, “all over the place”. I have no idea what that means.  I have to go back in at the end of January to have my appendix removed because of all the endo and the other tube removed.  God knows what else.  I’ll ask at my post op appointment.

I got out of surgery and the nurse says, “We’re gonna take you to you room now.”

“Room?”

“Yes you’ll be our guest for the night.”

“I’m supposed to go home.”

Nurse says to someone, “Can you go get her hubs?”

Hubs shows and looks a mess.  Geeze what the fuck happened?

Finally I get some explanation.  (see above) So, I was treated to a night of excellent care at Stanford Hospital.  I highly recommend it…if you have to stay.

So, I’m down for a bit longer than I expected…this is gonna make school nearly impossible…

Oh, guess what some of the symptoms are?

“Other common symptoms are abnormal uterine bleeding, spotting prior to periods, and infertility.”

Hm.

Let’s see, the insurance runs out at the end of January so IVF will have to be out of pocket…you remember how much out of pocket is, right?

In other news:  They are selling the townhouse we are living in so we may have to move.  *sigh*

Anyone else wanna take a pot shot?

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